My goal: I want to be wealthy, healthy, and wise!
So anyone who knows me... knows that the past FEW years have been a tremendous learning experience for me in fact I am still learning!
In 2008 I graduated from college and was told I HAVE to move to South Carolina with my Mother because I did not have a job yet. I was not feeling this option so I came up with a plan. I drove to Washington, DC and interviewed like CRAZY to try and stay up here. LANDED a job (where I am now and greatly underpaid which seems to be a reoccurring theme across America)... now I need a place to stay since I was basically living out of my car for the past week. (Yes, I have relatives here BUT that wasn't really an option) (PS dodged the bullet of moving to SC or did I REALLY dodge a bullet)
Anyway, my GREAT grandma (80+) years old let me stay with her rent free but in exchange for what seemed to be my sanity... so after a few months I moved to a one bedroom apartment in Southeast DC a building owned by my Grandfather and his wife both of which are Pastors. So I thought I was living LARGE until I started getting those good old DC Parking tickets for having out of state tags! (i.e. $200 a POP) so now I am blown!!!Not only am I forced to attend my grandparent church (in exchange for the apartment) and I can not have any guests over and I have to be quiet and the neighborhood is rough etc... (all for this apartment--rules provided by the parental unit) I have to get out AGAIN!!! So I begin looking for a place... I recently learned that I had family in Seattle, Washington along with THREE SISTERS who I never knew about. I went to visit ONE time and was ready to move but was financially unable to do this easily. So now what do I do? I moved to Maryland and I mean I MOVED WAY OUT in Maryland , it seems as if I keep going further away from my problems. Anyway, I got a roommate (*grr* looking back on THAT situation) and I ended up about $1500 out of a 10 year friendship and now I am officially FLAT broke bc I can't afford to live in this apartment.... WTH am I going to do... my feelings are hurt and I am confused! I refuse to EVER return to that state of broked-ness (as I affectionately call it) So I have a plan... I need to REBUILD my Rainy Day Fund, Build a Christmas fund bc I dream of being able to get EVERYONE gifts..., and now that I have a son I dream of building a college fund... I have worked my ASS off to stay above water... I think it is time I float for a little while...
I need a plan... I do not think I can survive in the DMV area... It saddens me because the father of my child does not want to live anywhere else. I really want to be with him but am I compromising myself for HIS happiness by staying... I do not know what to do. This is literally the most honest I have ever been with myself and I am BLOGGING it LOL... random... If I stay I need to stay in the Hood until I can build something better. If I move... I have to restart COMPLETELY... I am stuck at a crossroad....
Do I stay or Do I go?
Japan-Location of Mother now - no job, no bills, watch my son but without Hubby and without my Son's father...
Texas- Whole family but I still have no Job, no bills, and no Hubby or Son's father
Stay here- live check to check, no savings, no what if fund, no hopes of a house anytime soon, but I am with my Hubby and my Son has his Father... I am truly stuck...
God Help Me... please I can't do this anymore.
Give it to him... I give up!
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